Saturday, December 28, 2019

Dear me

I know you have been through a lot
The more you gave the less you got
But you never stopped to get going
You stood up and ran again
You cheered through thousand pain
As you kept on growing

You have missed the hugs you wanted
You wished for you to drop dead
But never stopped living
You had lots of tears to shed
But bigger smiles you chose to spread
You chose to master the art of giving

Thank you for loving yourself
and not waiting for any validation
Thank you for waking up every day
and not giving up to any limitation.

Thursday, December 12, 2019

Mubarakho Hame Hindu Rashtra hua hai

Suno suno dhol tashe baj rahi hai waha
Dhum dhaam se khusi man rahi hai yaha
Mit gaya wo, jo bhi hame jorne ko aya hai
Mubarakho hame hindu rashtra hua hai

Bhuke the,nange the, ghut rahi thi dam
GDP bhi aaye din ho rahi thi kam
Par
saare milke nafrat ka fasal zarur boya hai
Mubarakho hame hindu rashtra hua hai

Pradushan se ghayel tha pura awaam
Ghar baithe yuva ko bhi mila nahi kaam
Par
hindu khatre main the ye sabne jana hai
Mubarakho hame hindu rashtra hua hai

Betio pe atyachaar, desh baitha hai lachar
Golia nahi,bas mange the hamne bichaar 
Par
Sachai bhul hamne bair ki mangi dua hai
Mubarakho hame hindu rashtra hua hai

Pyaaj bike saib ke bhao, baazar me
Bhuke pet  baccho ko yeh maarte
Par
Masnad pe baithe ko koi na chua hai
Mubarakho hame hindu rashtra hua hai

Sachai ke kilaaf kitni dalile hui pesh
Kissan mar te the,chup tha yeh desh.
Par
nafraat ki boli sabne barabar sikh lia hai
Mubarakho hame hindu rashtra hua hai.

Kataar mai khara dekho Gantantra bhi
Ghusbaithio main aaj uska naam ji
sanvidhaan ka sar bhi aaj jhuka hua hai
Mubarakho hame hindu rashtra hua hai

Tuesday, November 26, 2019

Once upon a time there lived a girl

Once upon a time there lived a girl
She weighed too much,wasn't very tall
Had her issues, you can name any
Flaws you say? Well she had many

She had bullets in her brain
Mental illness that they call
Guess,she got hit by a train
and had a great fall

Couldn't read, couldn't write
Got Big 'F' in all the tests
Had future no bright
And yet she rests

Like a big fat queen that she is,
Cause she ain't got any ass to kiss.
And Free from your judgment she lives
As zero is the amount of fuck she gives.

Get me that sunshine

Get me that sunshine,
wrap your heart around mine.
Let me get the hang of it,
Even if it's just for a bit.
I will take that piece to my grave,
just this time i will be brave;
will take the rabit out of the hat
and let your soul catch that.
I will not at all take things slow
As I don't want to miss that flow
Not for second, for a minute but eternity,
you, i and love  will make a damn trinity.

Thursday, October 17, 2019

Bhuk hame manzoor hai saahib

Bhuk hame manzoor hai saahib
Bas goli khila do dharm ki
Japte rahe ham aaphi ka naam
Hame na parwa karm ki

Arth-niti se hame kya matlab
Aadhe to bas hindurashtra chahte hai
Baaki aadhe wo bhi andhe
Unko bhi bas bibaad bhahte hai

Masnad pe jo baithe ho raja
Sikka ucchalo ham nachenge
dhil do tum nafrat ki rassi ko
Ham chup rahe to zarur bachenge

Gaer mulko ko gaali dedo
Hame do wakt ki roti na sahi
Ham yaha baithe taali maare
Aakhir Deshprem to hai wahi

Chautha stambh  bik gaya hai
Par dushman hamare parosi hai
Galti hami se ho gai hogi
Kisne kaha aap doshi hai

Aaphi to hai param pita
Hamare aap rakhwale hai
Bhuke pet bhajan na hoye
Par ham kaha rukne wale hai

Aankh bandh,kaan bandh
Bas lete rahe ham aaphi ka naam
Chahe kitni bhi sacchai sataye
Aapko bhajte rahe ham subho shaam.

Tuesday, October 15, 2019

Chand baate dil se nikli hui

Tadpat tadpat dundhe ankhiya,
Ruth gaya mo se mori ratiya

Ek kahani bhule jagh mori,
Ek kahani kho gai Tohri

Har ek kahani sau sau batiya,
Bahe gya hanju,milo nadiya.

Pauncha na woh bas tohri kinare,
Zalim is dil nu,sach hi to maare

Dhime dhime  khwab sanjhodi,
Ban gaye asq ab ankho ki moti

Kagaz pe utre wo moti ka mala,
Kalam ki likhai ne sab bol dala

Bolna jo sach baaki tha ab tak,
Uchal asmaan main bhej dia rab tak

Khush tu rahe bas itni hai chahat
aur kya mangoo jab saamne ho qyamat

Saturday, October 12, 2019

কোনও মরুঝড়  যদি আসে

হঠাৎই কোনও মরুঝড়  যদি আসে
'মেলানকলি' উপহার দেব তাকে
মরীচিকা ধার চেয়ে নেব যদিও
দু একটা কথা লোপা লুপির ফাঁকে
বলব,বহুকাল আমি বিরহের খোঁজে
অর্থহীন ভাবে এদিক সেদিক ছুটেছি
জানলা দিয়ে মেঘ গুলকে পাওয়ার নেশায়
এক দু ফোঁটা বৃষ্টি আমি দু হাত পেতে লুটেছি
যদিও এখন শুন্য আমার ভাড়ার
তাই ধার বাকি তেই  কাজ চালাতে হয়
লোকে আমায় পাগল বলেই জানে
কিন্তু সব পাগল সত্যি পাগল নয়ে।

wear my heart on my sleeve


I have never had the courage to wear my heart on my sleeve,
the memories are not that bad but the dreams were taken by a thief.
With some dash of fear my childhood was what you call 'mediocre'
If it was the poor version of 'Batman' my life was a goddam joker

The darkness was just a postman, bringing letters from the past
And I would play 'the old librarian', saving the pages from dust.
Who shall keep up her good little act
In order to keep the books hard to find; intact .

Some said I give up too fast, some said I don't,
each one of them had a word of their own.
At the end of the day their opinion is their reality
We all were fooled by that and charged as guilty.

Now that I am old enough and still not free of judgments
My castle was burned and I was left with just fragments
With which I will build a cave strong enough for us to live
Now that I am old I will wear my heart on my sleeve.

On days like these

On days like these
When the world seems quiet
There are many
Stil praying for light
There are children
Who don't know the road back to home
Millions of cry unheard
Like invisible villains they roam

On days like these
When you got to count your blessing
Someone had to build a figurative wall
Just to stop the feelings from coming in
Someone our there didn't get their due
Cause people who value others
are left only few

On days like these
When everything is going right
Remember there are people
Still trying to win a fight
So stop complaining
And cherish what you got
gather the most you can
And if you can, take the best shot.
    
                                         

Go celebrate your independence

I will light up the street
When night will come to wrap you on its arms
The moon said.
Wow you are an incredible liar
The sun mocked her

Imagine if you were the moon
all happy on the thought of being helpful
But someone calls you worthless

Just believe in one thing
Not every one can be Steve Jobs
What is the definition of mediocre any way?
A big rat is bigger than the other rats
But will still be smaller than a small elephant
So don't get in the road of comparison
Be the best version of yourself

Go chase that dream
Go celebrate your independence
Do something so that people can say
'This is making me fall for you'

Welcome to the Paradise

Welcome to the Paradise, the sign said
Here words are bulid of captious manipulation,
Life depends not on how you lead it
But some weird heap of expectation.

Here people paint the rights as wrongs
and most of them are a huge part of us,
I bet you gotta love the hysteria around
offended people and their adrenaline rush.

They take care of the dark ones with great will
and butcher all the men of virtues  instead
This world is full of yay sayers and their slaves,
The rest of the  people are figuratively dead.

Can we all escape to the hell
Well at least that's what it they call
Where we can wave the flag of peace
Where there is light and love for all.

Where you can go out on a dress of your choice,
and your brother can love the guy of his par
Your man can have a job,still be the home dad
and no one judges you for ur drag queen avatar.

Where money is made of sweat and not blood
Life is just a road to enjoy and not a scar
Where you and me can be us without conditions
virus of judgment have not reached us so far

Before time just washes off like a castle made of sand

At times all you want is somebody to just hug you tight
And say 'don't you worry girl everything will be alright'
Or i can compromise it with a puff of a freshly rolled  joint
Before i start screaming at the world again to prove my point
It's not easy to try to fool yourself like a professional con
It is like opening your own baggage with a safety gloves on
As if you are too scared to keep a trace of you peeking
right Trough your soul, in hope of the answers you have been seeking
You put up a show in front of your people every damn day
Pretend to laugh at every other weird joke they say
Deep inside you try too hard to hide your little frown
It's been a while since the last time you got a chance to turn it upside down
I am a little tired now, with all these hiding and playing along
All i want is a moment of happiness and me to be strong
I guess now is the time when i take the rein in my hand
Before time just washes off like a castle made of sand.
Before time just washes off like a castle made of sand.

Somethings worth telling

Every night i sit in front of the window,
I keep my soul with me, wait for my heart to join
I am still to decide whether they are friends or foe,
guess I should try my luck and toss a little coin.

They say walk the path that are less traveled,
Full of adventure, mystery and a hell lot of fun,
Well i travel the same path every damn time
Somewhere there lost myself, but I'm  still not done

I wish my diary could talk to me for a while,
'I don't feel good' is all i want to say, if anyone lends an ear
But we all are people with feelings locked up in a pile
 'What will they say if we share', Is the only thing we fear

Rant of an young adult, to all it might seem,
Believe me go out and ask  everyone there
They also feel the same every damn day
But never show that they really do care.

Goodbye kiss

I know how it feels in the morning fall,
I was a part of it once,
Let me give you piece of it,
Cause i have had it all.

Have you ever tried to hold back to things?
Things,that are not ment for you,
Believe me when i say i feel you mate
Cause i know how much it stings

i know i can afford to cry,
the ink inside me haven't dried yet.
But i choose to put it on paper
Cause i know it's worth to give it a try

Now when you read this,
Be happy that you have the luxury to be sad
Cause you know some out there don't
And bid the over thinking a goodbye kiss.

Goodbye kiss

I know how it feels in the morning fall,
I was a part of it once,
Let me give you piece of it,
Cause i have had it all.

Have you ever tried to hold back to things?
Things,that are not ment for you,
Believe me when i say i feel you mate
Cause i know how much it stings

i know i can afford to cry,
the ink inside me haven't dried yet.
But i choose to put it on paper
Cause i know it's worth to give it a try

Now when you read this,
Be happy that you have the luxury to be sad
Cause you know some out there don't
And bid the over thinking a goodbye kiss.

Celebrate the inner bitch

It's been a while since the last time
I asked myself "how am i really doing?"
Is it because i don't love myself anymore ?
Or me,my actions have stopped wooing?
The narcissist in me at times questions
Whether i am toxic just for fun?
Or i like being the victim most of the time
and write shaddy stories but act like a nun.
Do any of you know how good it feels,
to pretend to be all sad through words?
Where in reality all you are is a 'Shit', you
listen to hoes singing and play the bitch card.
To be honest I kinda like the fact that it's
Dicks and pussies now that rule,
The bitch in my head dances on that note
But the panda in me thinks i am a fool.
I guess that's the reason why
I don't ask myself questions anymore,
I don't really care but the world hates me
And i am too busy settling that score.

To the one who's in the story

I regret not telling people
What i exactly felt in my stomach dance
The very moment they touched
My soul for the first time
'Poetry' is the language i used to speak then
Yet chose not to write my whole heart out
Was i stuck with the traffic of thoughts?
Or didn't know with what time would rhyme?
Now i want people to people to get it
Without me spilling the beans all over
I want them to sit me down to tell me
The stories of them making the same mistake
So that i stop smelling my words
When it comes out me, again and again.
Cause every time i sniff and reach my sense,
It smells of old rotten regret.

The demons inside us

What makes us humans?
What takes us out of the bed everyday?
Makes us fall in love?
Takes us to places where no one has ever been

I use to ask myself these questions everyday,
I had questions about humans,
I had questions about how they function
Humanity? that nvr found myself questioning?

It's been only few days, since i started questioning
I was hit by the second ever storm
I never thought i will find myself this weak
But then reality also had its plans for me

To this world, i ask, when you put blames on us,
When you question our characters,
When you question our motives,
Have you ever tried standing in front of a mirror?

Stand, stand please go and stand there for once,
If possible throw stone at it,
Let all the demons come out at once,
At least i will try and fight the vicious terror

But if you all start coming at us individually ,
If you all decide to be the asshole in different days,
I know i am not that strong to fight them all,
Cause i would never know what's behind that face.

I hate the way it ended

i  hate  the  way  it  ended  , 
but  never questioned  my  love  for  you ,
though  it  was supposed to  last  longer ,
I guess i paid what  was  due

the  parts  we  played , for a while
it deceived  me  to  believe  in  fairytale 
my inner demons were waiting all this time,
came  out  as  soon as they  saw  us  fail

painting  a  dream  full  of  happiness 
seemed like  an  easy  job  at first 
i  looked  around  for a  rebound 
without knowing my choice has been cursed.

Now when i look back at the hell
I was enjoying, fooled by temptation
Wish i could give you one last kiss
As a return gift for the gained salvation.

The unnoticed ones

I have been thinking a lot about shadows lately,
what made me fall in love with them?
You may ask, and i will smile and smile,
and show you a leaf attach to a fallen stem

You will look at me, as if i have gone mad
Nothing about me seems right, and here
You give another chance to feed my soul
With subtlety, and some how it's very clear.

Going back to the leaf i showed you,
Have you even noticed how it never leaves
Stays with the stem until the last breath,
even when the tree disown them, it relives.
 
The millions of beautiful shapes,cul-de-sac
of shadows roaming in the street at night
That is why i think it is the most wonderful
thing on earth,at least they are worth the fight.

Don't come back

Don't come back,
Don't come back to wrip off the bandage
When i stop bleeding.
I have put myslef in a cage,
Away from all the lies you have been   feeding.

Stop the show,
Stop the show cause i have nothing to say,
Here we are done.
For the same mistakes i can't keep on to pay
it's not at all fun.

Leave right now,
Leave right now for all i care
I will set you free
I will stand alone cause i do dare
to pick my soul out from my debris .

Sunday, October 6, 2019

To the humans, From Nature

Dear Humans,

The world is in danger,
Soon it can come to an end.
It is like a broken car,
Very hard to mend.

Water Bodies filled with plastic,
Lungs filled with tar,
If you don't take a step quite drastic,
You will be taking it too far.

Few bears left in the arctic,
Few birds left in the sky,
I hope you hear the bomb tic,
Otherwise you all going to die.

The greens will be all out if sight,
The ponds will all dry,
Later it won't be worth a fight,
If right now you don't even try.

Monday, September 23, 2019

Kaun hai tu? Deshdrohi?

Ji main deshdrohi hu,
Jisse maarne ko tum taiyaar
main wahi hu.
Main sawalo se hu bhari,
Jo dar se bhi naa dari,
Main wahi hu.

main krodh hu un maao ka,
Un betio aanho ka,
Main awaaz hu.
Main Us baap ki hu bebasi,
Jo is mitti main hi hai basi,
Wo raaz hu

darao na,chup karao na,
ha hame tum ghabrao na
Main ahinsa ki hu taapsi,
Yeh saare masle hai aapsi
Aisi jhuti baat bolke
tum paath hame padhao na.

Haan main deshdrohi hu
Jisse maarne ko tum taiyaar,
Gantantra ka hun main bhi yaar,
Main wahi hu.

Main bhuk se laachar hu,
Par zinda kalakar hu,
Salakho ke piche se
Main yudh ki pukar hu.

Hu kasmir main bangaal bhi,
Main senkro kangaal bhi,
Tum bas sun lo.
Rajneeti se rutha hu,
Par kasam main na jhuta hu,
Yeh jaan lo.

To main deshdrohi hu
Jo har paanch saal main vote daale
Mai  wahi hu
Main desh drohi hu.

Thursday, September 19, 2019

Tu 'Mulk' kahe 'Desh'

Tu mulk kahe ya desh kahe
Yeh mitti tera hai,
Hai is watan utna haq tera
Jitna haq mera hai
Na dharm se,Na jaat se
Hai matlab bas insaniyaat se
Na mandir, na masjid
Har dil main uska dera hai
Tu sabke andar jhaank ke dekh
Har dil main uska dera hai.

Bhagwa ho ya ho hara
Yah ho koi aur rang bhara
Bhul rango ki bhed bhao
Yaha indradhanus ka mela hai
Hai phul kahi aur ek hi daal
Hai Khoon sabka saman laal
Khoti niyat thi dushmano ki
waar unka sabne jhela hai
Tu ek rang se upar uthke dekh
Yaha indradhanus ka mela hai

Tuesday, September 17, 2019

Dear future, the year is 20something

Dear Future,
The year is 20something
We all stand together to wish each other luck
We talk about how happy we are
All of us are very satisfied with life
And grateful that life has taken us so far

Here the hammer drops,

I hear the guitar strums fade away in the  background
overpowered by some noise,
though we are very familiar with that sound,
But have doubts about that muffled voice.

Is that a child weeping or a girl crying for help,
Who have been torn apart by the society.
Or a poet in the midst of everything forgot their own self,
and gave up in front of the capitalist almighty .

Is that a boy being bullied, burying his fear
because he was repeatedly told boys don't cry.
Or he couldn't find someone very dear
Who would tell him that he is worth a try

Looks like the tune of evolution didn't reach them
Darwin was unfortunately proven wrong. Sigh!
and the flower of change has left its stem
And left the tree alone to die

Tell everyone why you are not the best of the time
and you need more rebellious people to come out,
Tell them for every one good deed you will pay them a dime
We need a team,without any doubt

You know the evolution,modernization we brag about
Haven't yet reached the child bride somewhere in rajasthan
We are still divided between girls and boys scout
cause patriarchy told every good guy 'dude that's not how its done.

the gay couple in a 'not so cosy' apartment in bombay
Have millions of dreams stored in a glass jar
All they want is people with some real attention to pay
And a society  who will not put them behind the sanskari bar

Just reach out for the ones in distress,
Teach the ones who are still blinded by norms
Teach us to walk the path of equality  in same pace.
Before the cost gets hit by a bunch of storms .

If anyone can change this, 'Dear Future',that's you
So use your wings,even the drones will work too
If anyone can change anything, 'Dear future', that's you.....

ধর্ম থাক ধর্ম নিয়ে

ধর্ম থাক ধর্ম  নিয়ে,
আমরা বাঁচি মানুষ হয়ে।
মন্দির বা গির্জা নয়,
সমাজ গড়ি শিক্ষা দিয়ে।

মনের ভাব ভাষায় প্রকাশ,
সে বাংলা কিম্বা ঊর্দু হোক।
জাতের সেবা বন্ধ করে,
দুস্থ সেবায় বাড়ুক ঝোঁক।

বন্ধ হোক জাতির নামে,
ধর্মের নামে মানুষ জবাই।
রাজনীতি-টা স্থগিত রেখে
ঐক্যের ভাষা বলুক সবাই।।
                     
                 -সুদীপা আদক।

Sunday, September 8, 2019

To my not so dear 'Self doubt'

Dear self doubt,You know what?
you have made me hate myself
I kept on killing my dreams,
But never asked for help.

Look how ugly you are
The mirror always had me scream
I forgot how to love
sympathy became the scheme.

"You can't write,you can't speak,you can't read"
I had it all checked
Never thought of setting myself free
millions of smiles i faked

Now that i survived all by myself
through the crazy night
I won't let you break me
At least not without putting up a fight.

Tuesday, September 3, 2019

WAKE UP BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE

See that boy with a name tag?
It says 'Not my religion' in it,

You don't  feel like killing him
And biting him just like a piece of meat.
Oh god you must be anti national then
Who are you talking for peace and shit?

Who are you all liberal and informed
You are not my people, you sound sane!
Don't want to divide and lynch?
Don't you feel us bhakt's pain?

Talking about religious freedom,
What is wrong with this woke generation?
They don't get the cast system at all,and
don't even want to follow it with passion

Well act of hatred repeats itself
And this time It needs a big nation
To put its claws deep down and cut the throat of unity and peace in succession

It will get inside your living rooms
It'll come and walk over the dead bodies
That would fall in the name of religion
Cause all this while we chose to stay at ease

And people will feel sad then too
Just like our 'GREAT' national leaders
You'll be hungry for such breaking news
And media will be that deepfake feeder.

Wake up before it's too late to walk free
Get yourself a life, stop the hate now
and stop calling your self 'nationalists'
You have failed the word and how.

                                                   -Sudipa Adak
                     

Wednesday, August 28, 2019

Don't come back

Don't come back
Don't come back to wrip off the bandage
When i stop bleeding
I have put myslef in a cage
Away from all the lies you have been feeding

Stop the show
Stop the show cause i have nothing to say
Here we are done
For the same mistakes i can't keep on to pay
it's not at all fun.

Leave right now
Leave right now for all i care
I will set you free
I will stand alone cause i do dare
to pick my soul out from my debris .