Story of a little Girl

It's 3 am I am still awake
Waiting for my heart to stop beating
Trust me it's not a love story
It's a story of darkness, defeating
the purpose of life.
shadows of forgotten mistakes
coming back to haunt me
the world stops spinning
for a moment, and I see
a mirror in front.
it shows me my true self
telling the truths i don't want to hear
a scary figure comes out of it
asks me to surrender while my fear
takes over my spine.
I ask it to stop with all my vigour
The whole room fills up with my screams
I hide under my disregard for life
making sure it doesn't see the dreams
that are concealed inside me.
It leaves me to live another day
And that makes the story of a little girl
Trying to survive the bitterness
hidden inside us like a crooked Pearl.
                                         -Sudipa Adak

Kya Baat .. Kya Baat

Main kalakaar
Tu bhrastachaar
Par tu sikhaye mujhe Rashtrabaad
Kya baat kya baat...
Jo main bolu tu sahi nahi
Tera banar sena mujhe pite wahi
Aur puche mera jaat paat
Kya baat kya baat
Is sawal ka na koi jawab hai
Ke deshbhakti kisse udhar le
Par mange tu praman din raat
Kya baat kya baat
Yeh tere jumlo ka jo khel hai
Sahi wahi jo isse jhel le
Har sachai ko tu de maat
Kya baat kya baat..

Chal batlaye tujhe sach aaj
Na darte ham us jail se
Jo soche sangbidhan ek khel hai
aur beizzat kare use din raat
Samajhle yeh baat..
                        - Sudipa Adak 

Its all in your head

'Ha ha ha' let's laugh about it
I mean what's that 'depression' shit
It's all in your head
Go out, make friends you are not dead
Be thankful that you are privileged
Trust me
'IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD'
Yes, it's all in my head
The darkness, the demons
The heartbreaks and tension
It's all inside
Wrapped with a lack of attention
They throw themselves at me
Come headfirst, when no one can see
They are sneaky, like termites
But you hide them like love bites
Immortal, as always
They are invisible, inexorable
Trust me much more horrible
Than everyone says
So stop judging
Stop telling me how I should feel
I have more problems to deal
And they are not imaginary
The actual word is 'scary'
That's what it is, so listen
To the people you love
Hold their hands tight,
When things get tough.

Hold their hands tight,

When things get tough.

the chinks in our armour

I have given it all, to the voices in my head
telling me i am nothing but a fool
Just a nobody in the sea of nobodies
Pretending to know it all, trying to be cool.

The hardships exist like railroads
They reach way too far but never move
Strech their arms as much they can, and
the eternal silence becomes their groove

The friendships are all temporary
part of the elaborated stunt called life
The myths and the facts preserved inside
like sacred honey inside a beehive

The sweet essence of darkness
the intoxicating presence of destiny
The incompetence, not at all liberating
but an understandable tragedy

We are imposters to our ownself
the symptoms are all so subtle
The chink in our armors are malignant
way too much to win the battle.

- Sudipa Adak

I AM

They love me, they love me not

Either way i am enough 

They scare me, they scare me not

Either way i am tough 

Short hair, big boobs

Long hair, flat chest

No matter how i look

When i am me i look the best

Married with two kids, or

Single mother with a lover 

May be i am just a girl for now

Anyway it is my territory to discover 

Love a boy or a girl, 

May be swing both ways

it is totally my choice 

I will do what my heart says

The mother, the sister, the daughter

I am whatever i want to be

If i do no harm to anyone 

It's no ones business, you see!

"Good girl" or "Bad bitch"

Labels are for cowards to give

I have wings to fly and horns to fight 

with a heart full of desire to live.

    

                                 -Sudipa Adak

At the end

There, you see the line
You will find humanity in it
somewhere in the middle
Hungry and thirsty, also scared a bit

Mother nature is distributing tickets
For something called the D-day
Asking about the parts we played here
and none of us got anything to say

You might rebuke me for saying all these
Cut my head off if you can
But you know you have nothing to do
Cause out of time we have ran

Believe me, i would love it
If you prove me wrong
Take a step back, rebuild, give us
A society that is strong

Where there's love and hope for all
Where greed is not a thing
Where we all are just humans and do
not have lebels attached with a string

Jawab mange ga waqt tumse

jawab mange ga waqt tumse,
Puchega ga lakho sawal
Pahechane ga tumhe
Tumhare kaale kartuto se
Rakhega yaad har insaan ka haal

Jagega har wo rota hua baccha
Sunayega har un maa baap ki chikh
Charo aur se sawal aayenge
Jawab mangte huye
Kiu na diye tum unhe jaan ki bhik

Jo duba hai, use pahechanta hai wo
Jo dubaya hai use bhi
Hai khara nanga waqt
Haat liye lahu un sabka
Aage barte huye milega wo tujhe hi

Aankh main aankh daale
Utarega kapra aankh se
Pochega har ek ke
Ruh pe laga hua daag
Un jale huye makano ke raakh se

jawab mange ga waqt tumse,
Puchega ga lakho sawal
Pahechane ga tumhe
Tumhare kaale kartuto se
Rakhega yaad har insaan ka haal

                                 - Sudipa Adak